unhappily happy winter blues thoughts

Doing a headstand, sitting on top of the "mountain" of Munich's Olympic Park - at night, watching stars, feeling snow on your face, breathing in - really deeply, warming up your hands at a hot cup of coffee - or tea, painting, walking really slowly, closing the eyes and listening to this one song that is touching your heart, going ice skating, falling in love - maybe - or not, meeting old friends again, feeling the warmth of the radiator, travelling spontaneously, activating your inner cinema and dreaming away to Norway, melting chochlate on your tongue, beeing sentimental for no reason, baking christmas cookies with your mamma, looking at the lights in the streets, listening to the sound of snow, thinking of the good old times, being cold for fun, saying goodbye and welcome at the same time,looking out of the window, eating nuts and oranges in front of a tiled stove, beeing sad - at least a bit, longing away while already missing home, staying home an desperately longing away, being friends, waiting until the new year finally arrives, playing christmas carols on the guitar, being unhappily happy and happily unhappy at the same time, waiting for a sign, waiting for somebody - or anybody, thinking: nothing at all - or at least try to.